Sunday, April 12, 2009

Everything happens for a reason.

How true.

Today, woke up at 5.10am.
Waiting for her reply.
Maybe she had gone asleep last night when I sms her after she went offline.

Went "Sao Mu" with my family and cousins and aunties and uncles.
Nothing much though.
After that we went to eat lunch at some coffee shop.
They ordered crab,
with XO added inside. @.@
Not much alcohol taste though.

After that,
went to Xiang's house.
While my aunties and mum and sister was gambling cards,
I went to take a nap.

By then,
it was already 2pm.
Still no reply.
I don't know why.
I can't find her an excuse.

So I was a little fed up,
sent a little harsh sms to her.
She replied.
Her reason was she did not off her silent mode. Hence did not realised there was sms.

I thought to myself.
Won't she even check her phone in the morning when she woke up?
Maybe it was the content of the sms last night.
It was about asking her when is she free.
Maybe she doesn't even want to reply me.

Not the first time she did not reply my sms.
But everytime, she have her reasons.

I don't even know if I misunderstood her all the while.
That time, when I was going out with her,
she was smsing most of the time but not all.

So how could she have miss my sms?
She doesn't want to reply me?
She just coincidentally did not catch my sms?

I don't even know I am fed up or what.
Now again,
after she explaining herself and apologizing,
I replied saying its okay.
Of cause, I am not expecting a reply,
coz there is nothing to reply about.

After that,
I joined my aunts.
Lost 20+ dollars.

Then I suddenly thought of her.
Maybe I was too sensitive about that
So I sms her apologizing for sending that harsh message.
Not surprisingly,
she did not replied.
Even a "Its okay la" could warmth me.
I don't even have that...

I am helpless now.
I sighed.
I stared blankly at the scenery on my way home.
I'm useless.
All I want is for her to be a little concern about me.
Just a little.
Yet,
I can't have that.

She will be busy the whole of next week.
Can't go out with her.

Maybe she have her reasons to ignore me.
I'm ugly.
My character sucks.
I have nothing that attracts her.
Absolutely nothing.
Void.

Don't know what to think now.
Don't know what to do now.
Seriously,
I don't.